Generally I manage to learn the daf in the morning and let it play around in my mind for a while before writing something. I didn’t manage to do that this morning, and I felt it. My imagination missed its muse, its plaything, and its lack of activity sat heavily with me throughout the day.
I’d always taken the idea of ‘vehigita bo yomam valaylah’ – you shall meditate on it day and night – as something of an unrealistic imperative, I can now see that it’s actually the description of a blessing, a possibility. Let it be on your mind constantly, and you will feel better for it; try to live without it, and you will miss it.
The daf today contains some extremely detailed discussions about urine and faeces. And if I’m honest, I found it tough going, it wasn’t obviously inspiring. Again, it may be that I came to it too late in the day, maybe the inspiration comes from encountering ideas in the morning, but either way, it didn’t leave me rhapsodic.
There was one gem, about halfway through we are in the midst of yet another discussion about the environment in which one may recite the Shema. I’ll leave the details for now, but Rava turns round and justifies his position with the following statement:
The Torah wasn’t given to the ministering angels.
On one level, he sounds a bit fed up with the discussion. Like Rav Pappa yesterday, I hear him as saying,”let’s be reasonable, let’s use a bit of common sense and not get too carried away with these detailed discussions…”.
On another level, I think it’s a fantastic principle. The Torah is given to human beings, in all their fleshy and bodily reality. We need not deny the body in order to utter or learn the Torah – we may make attempts to elevate it, but these are always going to be limited, both in terms of scope and success.
Indeed, part of why we engage with Torah is to achieve some element of transcendence, to lift our spirit from the weight of the body, to bring the taste of something beyond into the everyday.
To engage with Torah, with Divine Law, is to open ourselves to improving, refining, finessing our behaviour, our personality. We give more material to consciousness, we are taking part in Freud’s famous mission: ‘Where id (unstructured drives) was, ego (personality, consciousness) shall be’.
To be human is to be, hopefully, growing, reaching for the light, creating a character that we both trust and love. To be an angel is to have no need for this, it is to be born and created perfect, pure, without the possibility of either growth or regression.
We may not discuss Torah in the presence of faeces or urine which are giving off a repugnant smell. But at a certain point, we must accept them as part of the human condition.
We may still be left with an environment where Angels dare not tread, but for us, it’s the perfect point at which to be opened by Torah.